About two months ago I felt God put Muslims and Thailand on my heart. I kept praying about it and it had continued to be on mu heart. I ended up buying everything I needed for outreach having hope and faith that I would be going to Thailand. I continued to feel God putting Red light districts on my heart and kept praying for the people and the possibility of God using me to love on people, who had been in sex trafficking.
When I had arrived in Montana I still prayed about Thailand and still felt like I was going to be able to go do my outreach there. Wednesday night we finally had a free night so a few of us went into town and went to a store and then to a church to meet my friends twin. As we were about to leave one of the Pastors said, "Are you Charity? I really feel like God is telling me something I need to tell you." As you can tell I was a bit surprised by the situation, but was intrigued to hear what He was going to say. "I feel like you've experienced a lot of major changes and I wanted to let you know God did that for your benefit not your harm and He did it to get closer to you. I feel like He is going to do big changes in your life this year and possibly change your original plans during the DTS and that He just wants you to trust Him."
After that I was extremely curious what that could mean, but I just gave that to the Lord. The next day was the big day, where we found out the choices of places where we can go. So there we sat listening to them announce that we could pick between Ukraine, Czech Republic, and Thailand. Because YWAM is so spirtit led, they had asked that we would go pray about it for 50 minutes and encouraged us to go where God called us.
As I walked upstairs I felt my heart sank. I honestly did not want God to tell me not to go to Thailand, especially after He put Thailand on my heart two months ago. I sat in my dorm and I knew in my heart God wanted me to put Thailand as my second choice, but I continued to pray. I felt Him telling me to put Czech Republic as my first and Thailand as my second and if I was going to be picked to go to Czech Republic that I was to give someone who was going to Thailand all the things I had gotten for the trip.
I was so confused at first. I didn't get why God would tell me that after putting Thailand on my heart, but I knew He had my best interest in mind and did what He told me to do. I felt so at peace with it and knew I trusted God and wanted to be used anywhere He called me to go. I felt so much joy knowing that I did what was right. Later that night at around 9:30, when I was doing art in the art room, one of the leaders came in and said she had been looking for me and needed to talk to me alone. There we were walking to the office and for whatever reason I was wondering if I did something wrong. When we got to the office she said, "After the staff all prayed about where God is leading everyone to go, we would like you to pray about going on the second one you put down. We truly feel like that is where God wants you to be and we would like you to go to Thailand instead of Czech Republic." Of course I was deeply shocked, but the first thing I thought of was what the pastor had said the night before. I truly believe God used that to test my heart and trust in Him.
I am so excited to see and write about all the God moments that we will have, while in Thailand. This moment so much reminded me of something I learned with my family, during The Purpose Driven Life devotional. Life is a test and a trust. God uses things to deepen our trust in Him. I was excited to go to Czech Republic, but God used that to test my trust in him. I want to encourage you, if you are frustrated or confused about change that you do not understand give it to God. He loves you so deeply, and if you allow Him, He will use it to deepen your trust and relationship with him.
Lots of Love,
Charity
"The crucible for silver and the furnace for gold,
but the Lord tests the heart." ~ Proverbs 17:3
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